Judge Pro Tem/Darth Vader

What is a judge pro tem? "1) adj. short for the Latin pro tempore, temporarily or for the time being. In law, judge pro tem normally refers to a judge who is sitting temporarily for another judge or to an attorney who has been appointed to serve as a judge as a substitute for a regular judge." pro tem - Legal Dictionary/Law.com

Misinformed, I chose the latter, an attorney as a substitute, with ZERO accountability. He could have brought "balance to the Force", X. He didn't, and justice was not served. Immediately on finishing this acrylic piece, the words Darth Vader loomed large.

followed by these pieces to expunge and return to a sense of beauty in the throes of hellish divorce proceedings. The words are Pseudo Judge, Pseudo Justice, Thwarted Truth. 

Judge Pro Tem

OOPS, wrong choice! Yet, how could I have known he would adhere to sexism, patriarchy, and love of the businessman? Much more to be revealed as I paid heftily and so want to feel requited.

Dive Deep Progression

My Guidance was pushing me out. Every fiber of my being was screaming "enough!" Never could I have anticipated the ensuing emotional hurdles forcing me to "dive deep." Here again, artistic expression aided in my quest for equilibrium, nurturance and beauty in the midst of the struggles.

Another Cover-Up

Although fiery in expressiveness, I deemed this piece to be sub-par. So, I kept reworking it. Swift judgment can be dangerous, and seldom is artistic revision stemming from it successful for me.  That being said, the lower image feels like I expelled something necessary which is a good thing.

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Artistic Expression And Aha Moment

An intuitive strongly advised that I delve deeper into simmering feelings of sadness, grief, loss, abandonment, etc., etc., etc., and express them on canvas and in my art. This black image is the offshoot. I found it so intriguing yet very disturbing. Rather than sit with and in my discomfort, I reached for other acrylic colors and immediately started the cover-up; hence, full obliteration with the sequential image that I now call "Blue Cover-Up." 

Then an epiphany! I realized whenever I felt upset, I quickly turned to seeking beauty to assuage my feelings and thwart tears. Wish I hadn't covered the original but feel happy that I at least took a photo.

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