“You cannot really disconnect yourself from the passionate, desirous being that you are. It was with enormous clarity that you came forth into this body, and that’s why when you try to hold your desire down, it keeps coming up…Your cork will always float unless you are holding it down.” Abraham Hicks
Rampage - Abraham Hicks
A healthcare practitioner sent me this link. In a short amount of time, she knows me quite well. Each word resonates, and the messages are perfect for this phase of my life - coming into alignment with what I'm asking for.
Le coup au coeur (The Blow To The Heart) - 1952 Oil On Canvas by Magritte
The Magritte exhibit at SF MOMA is quite marvelous. Given recent soul searching and deeper understanding surrounding family systems/issues and the necessity to cut the ties, this painting stood out for me.
The MOMA caption reads, Magritte believed that certain “secret of affinities” existed between unlikely pairs of objects. “We know the bird in the cage,” he commented, but “it is more interesting to replace the bird with a fish, or a shoe.” While presenting a flower with a dagger may at first seem as arbitrary as showing a shoe in a cage, these items do share a connection, as the prick of the rose’s thorns is mirrored and amplified by its weaponry. When it comes to matters of the heart which is mightier, the rose or the sword?
I Am Changing
Into The Fire 5 And Birth
Per a recent reading: So close to the beginning of a new life cycle after a lot of frustration. Present are qualities of a birth, always difficult, where many elements are struggling to take form but have not yet materialized. Said to be a very successful situation. And, it’s growth and the pains are growing pains. Beginnings can be challenging. Slowly, I will see the order.
Highly Evolved 2
One description - “10 Signs you are a highly evolved person: 1) You strive to live a life well lived, 2) you have value-based goals, 3) you are non-selectively grateful, 4) your work is not a job, 5) you mastered your motivational strings, 6) you are in charge of your emotions, 7) you know when it’s time to stop and reflect, 8) you know that there’s growth in every failure, 9) you learned to appreciate meditation, and 10) you bring out the best in others.” Mary Brians at learning-mind.com
Highly Evolved
Groomed at a young age for this direction. Much “grist for the mill” on my path from messy early life traumas/wounding continuing into adulthood involving patriarchal and female oppressive forces, rootedness, foundation and the home.
Spontaneous Writing - Be A Good Girl - 2014
What is autonomy safety What is safety what how did a sensitive boy become a hardened, ease the restraint I AM poisonous person I AM cold and disconnected man What is I AM I AM and the angels weep and the angels weep and the angels weep contradictions stories and misinterpretations oh my shackles, the web, entanglement confusion and chaos malleable and mutable mixed motives surge befuddled I AM celestial beings magnificent and perilous nothing is ever black or white or is it? I AM imagine having nothing to hide ode to the breath calm the critic passionate power I AM dominance and control outrageous inner temple heart nectar lightening the shadow celebrating me permanently altered sociopath extreme narcissist the wizard of oz balance gentle warrior emergency I love my life emergence triumphant glorious rebellion relax into chaos subjugation under threat dominance and control muted after clarity only confirmation wiggling and scampering immersion movement and momentum rancor and controversy injustice ubiquitous perilous allies vitriolic trajectory focus determination love solidarity persistence vision allowance independence extraordinary dare to be different dare the vision the stance the position the negotiation the format the chakras the mood soul spirit soaring high soaring far soaring soaring soaring soaring like a bird freedom independence love partnership reciprocal understanding support belonging derivative play listening happiness value creativity inspiration health wealth abundance for good girls keep muted keep silent stay passive shut your trap pipe down button your lip keep quiet keep very quiet mind your manners do as you are instructed be compliant be weak strength to conquer to defy the authority oh the patriarchy oh the patriarchy intending to suppress to oppress to adhere to inequity and anything individual silence thwarted truth meek tired defeated defiant boisterous calm mercurial weak sexist chauvinist absurd pithy sizzle frying pan desperate control absent disassociation skip oh my reality imagination forthcoming messy steadfast and staunch erratic quicksilver unsteady fluttering fluctuating phenomenal stealthy sanity rancor creativity punctuality foreboding imminent fluttering fluctuating phenomenal stealthy sanity rancor creativity punctuality foreboding imminent gentle caressing affectionate respondent concrete action illusion delusion art music dance expression value chromosomes time finish it finish it finish it impermanence transience open seize the moment the process illumination darkness candle white light chakras intuitive okay
Cut The Ties That Bind
After just leaving a therapy session focusing on this topic, a vision of this “Scissors” piece I created in 2013, and forgot about, loomed large. These words are written throughout and convey what was and still is required for stability, sanity and flourishing.
Female Principal/Principle
In January’s reading, my historically uber-accurate astrologer mentioned that in September there would be more reconciliation with this in my life. Although I made note of it, I could not have fully understood what he meant without experiencing months of situations leading up to this designated time.
September turned out to be pivotal with the focus, indeed, on the female principal(le). I found myself smack dab in the middle of the necessity for reconciling this and the oppositional forces to the divine feminine, the nurturing and the primal mother. ‘Twas not a fun process to deal with sisters and mother, but most assuredly, a necessary one.