On the heels of the last 2 posts, here’s a piece called “Magnificent, Fascinating, Perilous Moments” from spontaneous writing in 2013. Perhaps, though, the more appropriate title now is “Full Circle” because I have come full circle back to the Source of it all - Dad, Mom, family of origin and my karma. Karma in the sense of the ups and downs that need to be worked through in this lifetime for the evolution of my being - rites of passage such as family, marriage, childbirth, divorce, and the passing of parents in order to come into full being. For me, I have needed the completion of these to be a “daughter of life” and move into the next cycle of my empowerment and career house.
The words are: “Magnificent, fascinating, perilous moments facing the edge, standing in full embodiment on the edge, the edge of what? Well, the edge of life of course in fear and doubt and unknowingness. It’s the terrifying quality of being immersed in the unknown, the unknowing, and scared to death hoping and sometimes praying that death would knock at the door for a reprieve, for restoration, for peace, calm and relief. Big time relief. Relief of enormity for rest, for breath, for a chance to recover and recoup love, understanding, full forgiveness and compassion for myself and all that has bound and for all those whose intent is to bind, control, have dominion and great power over. Yes, the many magnificent, fascinating and perilous moments facing the edge, being on the edge of life and all that life delivers in an attempt to shake up and open eyes and heart to the great potential of all that exists. No easy feat. No easy feat to stand tall, to stand firm and face squarely what needs to be grappled with, what needs to be revealed, what wants to be revealed. No easy feat at all and not for one minute something for the faint of heart, for what is necessary is courageous, persistent thought and action in order to persevere in great triumph with utmost tenacity to movement, to growth, to expansion. Yes, expansion. Exposure and expansion sometimes via trials by fire and water, connecting the dots, surprising synchronicities, movement and magnificence. To explore full and true power, the power to affect in the most beneficial way mankind and life. To see, to feel, to grow, to understand, to embrace tenacity to do whatever it takes, whatever it takes to be wide awake in the moment and to understand all that goes on and needs confronting is for the purpose of awakening, of being fully awake no matter what. It’s about letting go constantly and adamantly to everything and all that no longer serves, no longer offers gifts, health, love, and happiness. Go for it! With magnificent, fascinating, perilous moments in and of our lives. Yes!”