Crow Medicine Addendum
From birdclan.org: “When you learn to allow your personal integrity to be your guide, your sense of feeling alone will vanish. Your personal will can then emerge so that you will stand in your truth. The prime path of true Crow people says to be mindful of your opinions and actions. Be willing to walk your talk, speak your truth, know your life’s mission, and balance past, present, and future in the now. Shape shift that old reality and become your future self. Allow the bending of physical laws to aid in creating the shape shifted world of peace.”
I keep working on all of this.
Crow Medicine
This morning I woke up early to the sound of crows. Whereas in the past, I’ve felt annoyed from the jarring noise, this morning I carefully listened, felt their strength, and found them to be oddly comforting. When they flew away, I excitedly jumped out of bed, went to my computer and googled “crow medicine” and voila, this link. Oops, pre-TM (Transcendental Meditation.)
What perfect messages! Especially regarding the latest saga with my birth family referenced in previous posts; i.e., Wishbones and Daggers, Frayed Family, Shattering of Illusions, SHH.
Referring back to crow medicine, here are pertinent excerpts from birdclan.org: “Crow is the sacred keeper of the law. Crow medicine signifies a firsthand knowledge of a higher order of right and wrong than that indicated by the laws created in human culture. With Crow medicine, you speak in a powerful voice when addressing issues that for you seem out of harmony, out of balance, out of whack, or unjust.”
“Crow is also the guardian of ceremonial magic and healing”. I could use both right now!
Beliefs And Sacrifice - Colin 2
I believe in justice, I believe in equality, I believe in rising from oppression, I believe in freedom, I believe in love, I believe in beauty, I believe in abundance, I believe in health and well-being, I believe each person matters, I believe in exploring fullest potential, I believe in transcendence.
I believe in the above so fervently that I, too, have been willing to risk everything; starting with unraveling and extracting myself from my birth family’s system, (post father), of survival, getting enough and having enough and segueing to leaving a long-term marriage. In addition to joyous moments of discovery, there have been many lonely, isolating, emotionally wrenching ones on this path I call “The Hero’s Journey” in shattering the illusions and removing veil after veil to achieve autonomy. This is an enormous journey, and not one step has been easy. However, given the freedom I am starting to feel and embrace more often and the expansion in my creative expression, the golden doors are open and I will continue, because it is my destiny, to walk through them no matter what.
Segueing To Nike Ad Campaign
Kudos to Colin Kaepernick and Nike. “Believe in something. Even if it means sacrificing everything. #JustDoIt !!!!” As my son says frequently, “YEA”!
This is brilliant, and he may have saved himself from CTE.
Purpose
Referencing the “Malleable and Mutable” post, I mentioned staying true to my purpose. I think this word is similar to mastery in that neither is a destination; rather, a process and journey of experiencing the many facets of life influenced by karma. Believing that I am a spiritual being having a human experience this lifetime, my “purpose” is to evolve, moment by moment, to my greatest potential emotionally, physically, and spiritually. This means staying in alignment with what I know to be true no matter how difficult.
Phone Hangouts
My much younger friend and and I are really good at this. Last night we had another 2+ hour, meaty, fun conversation. Although I appreciate the availability of texting and emailing, I need balance with personal connection.
Customer Service
Early this morning I telephoned Doctor's Data lab in Illinois to find out if my test results were completed. Clearly, the customer service rep was in a negative mood and spoke to me with annoyance. Understanding that this was not about me so no need to take it personal, I spoke to her in a very friendly manner. Albeit a strain for her, she ultimately gave me the answer I was seeking.
This is corroboration of growth and grace. I quickly relaxed into my knowing/truth and responded accordingly rather than react and match her frame of mind. What a relief and feeling of happiness to take responsibility for myself only and release her to hers.
Malleable And Mutable
A description of me in former, key relationships - malleable - "easily influenced; pliable" and mutable - "liable to change." Keenly aware, I take responsibility for this behavior of altering my energy to accommodate others, namely birth family and X, that led to many unhappy moments wherein my "self" was camouflaged and diminished. I've lost good friends and many creative opportunities over the years as a result. This is no longer acceptable for me, and so I now move forward in my new life seeking fully aligned, supportive collaborations. I know who I am now and what I want. My intention is to thrive, lead a vibrant life and stay true to my purpose. I see the "Golden Doors" flinging open.
Using white oil crayon, in 2015 I created a series of works with these two words. Although indiscernible here, the color of this piece and the others is pure white and the layering is thick. The overall effect is very dense and lacy, a reminder of femininity and perhaps a wedding dress. Perfect, Tommy, Perfect!
